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Black As Disillusion

by Kiss The Blade

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1.
She starts to descend the stairway She comes down to me Nothing moves and noone speaks But I can do it easily She is like them drowning children Celebrating fear and pain All her hopes remain uncertain Still she's waiting in the rain Tomorrow we shall meet again For a detailed nighttime session I can't wait to touch her hands Despite this devastating passion Where I can hold her Where they can see On the other hand I doubt that she is good for me Oh! I must feel really bad to taste it again This could be the only reason So she's gone forever Straight ahead Satisfaction guaranteed Again I know that I won't listen Her beggings leave me cold Once I made my decision Now my soul is sold Helpless begging for salvation Only she can give to me Her hands keep grabbing my heart so tightly Where is our heaven I fail to see Helpless begging for salvation I can't forget, I can't escape Tomorrow I'll raise my head again And see her waiting in the rain
2.
The Enemy 03:28
Go on, call it weakness But you're the loser of this war Call it none of my business Now here I am and I'll find you there again So soon I got you on your knees So soon the lights have changed to green I can't rest and wait in silence After all these things I've seen You got eyes to face it all The walls around you are not so tall But fine, relax and watch the sunset I will stand and you will fall And when the new day comes Again those days gone by return How much time has passed since then I don't care, I let them burn After a while the newness is gone completely And then there is this kind of dread Kind of creeping dread Still your hand rests on my shoulder But you turn your eyes away from me And one by one we end the day Now as you think that I'm the enemy
3.
Make It End 04:48
All that's left for me to ask for Is to return to you for just one more time And feel the safety I remember Then go and leave what once was mine Wait and wait and hours pass 'till finally the night arrives Well done, and now the boredom changes Yet there's so much going on in my life I go on to where you pushed me Some direction I can't stand Hope is fading as I can see Not many ways how it could end More days to come with your face stuck Deeply inside my head Turn around, turn around, turn around and turn away I see my dreams, they fade on me Useless struggles led to blackness How could I let it all come to this Laughing helps me through the day For how much longer can I go on this way Make it end You leave me waiting for what never comes Let it end But you don't even know what you have done to me
4.
Within the first weeks I got that feeling I could tell you everything, you said Oh, yeah, so you started thinking of ways How to treat me right Just bear in mind that I am not your pal, my friend Always bear in mind that I am not your pal I'm halfway through a shady combat But nothing will harm you as long as I'm around There's not much more for me to do now Only time will prove you that I'm true, you said And as I sat there longing for what I thought I'd lost I answered slowly how I'd love to believe you But it changed as soon as I left you in the doorway No opportunity to tell you what that morning had achieved How our trust and our hope defeated my fears My doubts extinguished by a flood of relief Unexpected avalanche Again I'm trembling, you said And after all these words of what had happened I understand you wished I'd told you all before Bloody disguise I ended my feigning but it would be a lie If I claimed I stopped it all on purpose Bear in mind I'm not your pal
5.
Vain Try 05:09
Again I sit aside and smile pretending Not to watch them getting more than they deserve I can't take it with a smile no longer Don't say I blind myself to facts with sheer belief in What I want to own for sure, 'cause it's not true All they see, all they expected is a joke beside your silent traits This foolish competition leads to loss and anger Some uncool kind of jealousy holds me captive and it's Not too hard to understand that only you can clear my headache Oh, so we're far too far to get caught up, but you tell them things that I don't know How come you seem to perform a duty when you join me in the dark And like the last time this stitching silence has taken over And I hate myself for having caused another spoiled night-out As it is you are the force that makes my life stand up and fall This is what happened and I remember how it was before I'll never reaccept my way of living in former days I know both ways now and I know which one I prefer But can't you see I need your helping hand to pull me back My one-sided tries are vain, 'cause in this game you're cause and effect I give you what you want from me, but do you really care enough for me You owe me nothing in return, it's just a deal to show me the things of our concern
6.
King 04:35
Don't ask me for what remains Your picture here is wet with stains The tragic taste of hostile games Ended our ride - my friend Precious moments are all gone I won't ask you what went wrong No need for me to come along Or even turn my face to you Nothing in my mind is new Just one thing not to do No, you've never been untrue But still there's nothing more to say - admit I see it clearly day by day Some moments never fade away The power I gained is here to stay But will it help me stand this loss Hear me speak and listen, too All my thoughts are known to you Kickout the candles, turn on the light Make the painting shine so bright Promise me the promise I Never want you to deny Hear my desperate silent cry Oh, King - don't let it die
7.
This is less than I expected All delights that don't remain Die or hurt me, nevermind Just go and let me live again I have no answers anymore The chills remain behind the door Everything so good and new But I don't believe you No space no more No must no more No love no more No trust no more I don't wanna see anything Don't tell me what to do Everything is on it's place now And I have got no time for you I walk to where I've been before You can't impress me anymore I face nothing but another love Your arms before me, but step aside, I know that I have seen enough One more night and I will feel this second's way forever Someone around me falls to the ground and rests upon the floor Just one more night and I will find some other hand to hold on She cries "Don't leave me, don't turn your eyes towards the door"
8.
Outside myself I sense love lurking Planning more attacks on me But I've built up walls noone can crush Why love... I watched the lights of neon red But now I turn away instead of Sharing my surroundings pleasure Why love... On the screen I experience the most Like you I want not to be lost You might awake to a brandnew life Why love... So sweet, so caring and so shy I'd give up everything today Just to watch her fade away again so Why love, if losing hurts so much? I feel like someone mad and wasted Winds himself inside my brain I have not found what I have tasted The search for it drove me insane May reason win over passion I see my heaven's so far away Believe me, I`ve learned my lesson Why love, if losing hurts so much? The girls that have knocked on my door Calculating, sweet and poor Have not been worth my close attention Try so hard without a chance At last my life has changed direction No longer do I need a hug The answer to my life's the question Why love, if losing hurts so much?
9.
Day X 04:47
I fear to crush our fragile chain and Yet I have to ask again I promise you, don't trust in vain I'll never mention it again Let me ask you the last questions Let me long for the last answers The words you said made me cry I felt like heaven, you know why But the doubts about us leave me torn You stab my heart with a thorn You give me everything to do My life is worthless without you Hold me like you've done before Two years I cannot wait for more Six I waited just for this Don't mind the things that I would miss Feel my hand, reach out for me Feel my grip, look out and see Right in my face, in my eyes I'll lead you to our paradise Within my arms you can hide I offer things, you decide I give you what you want from me With all your choices I agree Has there something died between us Is the result the lack of trust Touch me again to seal our deal Never turn away from me
10.
Deadly Sins 05:22
11.
Ward 05:40
Read the Lovecraft story, it's all there, only more elaborate
12.
The Drowning 03:27

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First gig 1992, a couple of records 1994 - 2002, a couple of shows 1992-2002. Hard Goth.

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